TODAY

What's going on today

11.08.2006 Getting there

I feel that maybe this thing about weekly goals is slowly paying off. I definately feel better.

09.08.2006 Progress so far

Nothing gained nor learned so far :(

07.08.2006 The weekly "Big Change" goals

So I realized today that I can make the most of my Big Change project by setting goals for each week.

For example today I decided that in the Mind section I will try to learn from my mistakes. So this week I will really use time to change my behavior on the areas that I know, and I mean absolutely KNOW, that I am not doing as well as I could. I don't mean that I will start looking everywhere for mistakes that I've done (that would be quite self-destructive I think) but I also know that I am not using my full potential in everything I do. And that is a waste of myself. I don't want to be wasted. Heheh.

On the Body section I will see how much I weigh today and will try to loose 1kg(2.2lb) by the end of the week. It should be possible as I think that I have some extra weight now due to water. This is also related to the Mind goal because I know that I will feel better if I eat and exercise right, I just tend to forget... haha

03.08.2006 The Bliss of a Weekend

I love weekends, I just simply love them. After five days of work it feels amazing when you realize that from now on for the following 2.5 days I can turn the freetime me on. I can do whatever I want, when I want or the best of all I can simply do nothing at all. The best thing is that I can drop the work me and just be me. That's one of the best feelings in the world.

02.08.2006 How people become evil?

Well not evil in the sense of pure evil. I mean evil in the sense of mean? What the hell is going on with normal healthy people who just think about themselves? People who look down to others, people who use other people to boost their ego. I don't think these are values that parents usually teach their kids and therefore I wonder what happens to people that they forget how to be nice, how to help, how to share, how to be humans?

01.08.2006 How damn dependent I am about things!

I mean it's horrible. I am addicted atleast to the following things (well if not addicted, it makes me VERY anxious to be without them): Cigarettes, sugar, cell-phones, being able to communicate with my couple (i get really worried if I can't reach him, and I mean worried in the manner that he has died, left me, been kidnapped etc.), exercise, fitness and food related articles and internet pages with colorful pictures, cigarettes, cigarettes, cigarettes and sugar.

Maybe I should just calm down. I think this rate I will end up being addicted to one more thing: Valium.