So I came back from the foreign land far far away. During the trip I had gained 5 kilos (11lb) and I had stomach as a pregnant woman. I have to be honest though, some of it was water as I lost 3 kilos (6.6lb) in two weeks, doing absolutely nothing. Well I started my journey by not eating candy, snacks etc. anymore. When I got used to that I cut off pasta, rice and most of bread from my diet too. I prefer fish and white lean meat and I added loads of vegetables and fruit into my diet. I started to loose weight steadily. After 4 months I had lost 10 kilos (22lb), all this without any exercise. I felt amazing. It might sound easy but it really wasn't. Changing the way I eat required a lot of self discipline and I couldn't have done it without my couple who handled my cranky face when I wanted to eat bad things and he wouldn't let me. After a while though it came easier and easier.
My couple had to go back to the foreign land far far away and I put all my energy into studying and doing exercise at home. I was stille loosing weight but I was also getting fitter. I missed my couple so much that the only way not to go crazy was making sure that I had hardly any quiet moments during the days and that I exercised hard enough to fall asleep without trying. I started to go to the gym seriously in March 2006. I started to tone and was slowly loosing weight. Somewhere in May I hit the infamous plateau and lost my motivation. I had been trying hard for 9 months and it was the first plateau for me. I needed a break from dieting and everyday exercise. Maybe 2 months of break wasn't the best idea, but I feel that I needed it. The time also reminded me about the reasons why I am doing this. I also found completely new motivating factors, new reasons why I am doing this.
Besides from outside I only started to change from inside. I gained more confidence, I opened my eyes to new things. I realised many things about myself and many things about the people around me. I started to enjoy everything, the good and the bad. This time I really took everything in, I felt it, I laughed for it and I cried for it. But I felt it. I felt and still feel like a newborn and I am still learning more and more.
So someone opened my eyes, and I have changed so much in so many ways that sometimes I can't believe it's really me and at the same time I know that I am closer to the true me everyday. I deserve this. The most important thing is that I feel good about me and my life. And I am just starting.